I thought I would talk about that story I posted yesterday "If someone had known".
First of all,I took down all of the entries I made and posted it in full,I should have down that yesterday but I never thought to,so I did it today.
Its in my journal,fics community and bjfic so you can read it in any one of those places if you want.
When I went to bed last night it bothered me what people would think when they read it because it was my life that the fic is based on,what had happened to me,but I put Brian in that position.
I had been thinking about writing this story using Brian for a while now and when my computer was off on Friday night due to the snow storm,I took my candle's to my bedroom and wrote it all out in one sitting,it took me ages to do,the first time I did that in therapy a few years ago it took my weeks.
I went to see my therapist last Monday and she told me I had to write to him telling him how hurt I was by what he did now that I have come through it,and that would give me the closure I needed,so I will do that when I can.
Im gonna try and leave that until after christmas because I have much to tell him but don't feel ready to do it yet.